6 months :'(

exactly 6 months ago, a big decision was taken and make the situation uncontrolled until now. don't know who's actually wrong, AND I REALLY REALLY REGRET OF DECISION THAT I'VE MADE!!

brief thoughts, emotions for a moment, fragile mentally and also contaminated mind, that's the problem at the moment!! most likely mistakes was made by me and very stupid, I realized it after the incident on AUGUST 17th, 2010

but everything has been going on, I even he doesn't know what we've to do. too often to said what's on my mind and what's I felt. I've been express it all.

wish he realized and knows what he'll doing and I think a decision of it will change everything. please think of it.

"each met there must be separation, but not now, not at this time, later! and yes, that's because of stupid mistakes that I've made."

there is always a chance to meet but a chance to speak, to joke, to play together (again) is impossible.

please GOD, give us the best way to solve these!

and "wish you here :( now, for today, tomorrow, next week, next month, next year, next life and forever"